everything is getting me stressed up.
friends, exams, dance props, family, klass tee. omg.

i feel guilty, i have not been studying, not listening in klass, out for walks. seriousy, i can't concentrate, i can't absorb, i don't have the motivation to study, i really can't seem to study no matter how hard i tried. maybe it's just affecting me too much. i don't know.
dance props, saturday is the finals, props are all not done. tmr's a short day, friday is a public holiday. i'm not prepared for danceworks. i'm scared. even if we won, who am i supposed to share my joy to ? family ? no way, they don't even want to watch my performance. saddening. ok nvm. shan't talk bout it anymore. numb.
klass tee. no design, no contacts, nothing. sports day is coming. i assumed all the 4e klasses have already done theirs. ours ? oh man, forget it.
i want to give up, seriously, i'm so affected. sometimes i just hope i can't hear anything, can't see anything. i want to get on with my life. i don't want to stay on like that. i'm tired. i blast my mp3 to cover up the 'noise', i can still see. it's been more than 2 weeks since we've talked. there's no sign, nothing. nothing's happening. it's just hanging there. i'm tired of waiting, tired of everything. you've got people around who care. i see that you are happier now. i'm glad too. i guess i should just quietly go away, maybe you won't even realise it. things that used to be our's is now with others. i don't wanna care anymore. i'm tired. omg i feel like crying now.
* i think you will be that jian person to come. someday you will know.

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