everybody hates me, no one cares. even my father. i'm not happy, i still have to act like i am. i'm angry, but i still have to act like i'm fine. i hate this kind of life. i really hate it. no one understands, when i needed someone so badly, no oone was there, not even a single soul. everybody had their own plans, fun ones. even my father. i was left alone. no one, at all. i hate this kind of life... it really sucks. i want to die. i dont want to stay here anymore. i'm tired. just let me collapse and die. i don't wanna care anymore, seeing that you are happier now, i'm glad too.
i hate myself i hate my life. everybody hates me.

ok.. no teachers, so out walking, wandering around the school alone again. yup. found a few places where you can go to when you are like feeling so pissed or just feel like being alone. i don't think anyone would be able to find you thou. yup. good places around the school to calm yourself down, away from the noisy, irritating poeple. yup, and i realised, that there are so many fake people around me. those super fake ones. SUPER DUPER FAKE ONES. ya.

*madam rabia is nice. :)






i'm reallyyyyyyy tired and totttttttttallyyyyyyyyyy sttttttttttressssssssssed outtttttttttt.
soar fingers and legs.

quite alot of things happened this couple of days.




i'm really sick and tired of hearing all these stuffs.
please, if you don't know what really happened, and how it happened, just shut up. stop spreading those rumors and things that are like so untrue. just shut your trap, i'm tired and stressed enough already, i don't need you to add on to my it.

Labels: :(

yea right. i'm always the bad person. shyt this, going off for walks soon......... byeeee.........

thanks for being there. :)

omfg. i feel like crying now. wth. you will never know how i feel.

dance club bonding session today. had fun esp that ian poh thing** :) hahaa.. but, didn't really got bonded with them thou. dance at 2 till 6, super tiring, can't imagine the next few weeks. syf, danceworks tsk.
gina treated us to sakae, so nice of her. :) think she spend quite alot even though ian, mel and i shared a bowl of rice and noodle. heh. at first things were going well, had fun, but sudden moodswing cause of some stupid message by some stupid ppl to some stupid handphone. sort of pissed off but whatever. i'm ok, perfectly fine. jac and gayle pei-ed me took mrt to pasir ris. haha. jac jiayou! :D

OMG I ATE 3 PACKS OF KINDER BUENO, WHICH IS LIKE 6 BARS ? OMG. those chocos definitely made me feel better emotionally, BUT MY THROAT IS KINDA SOAR NOW . haha. whatever, this is a good way to ease the inside pain.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWAN ! :)











four words: changed picture, badly affected.

whatever. i'm numb-ed.

what for ? i'm only making myself pissed. so i shall just relax and treat it like nothing. yup, nothing.

Labels: i'm happy.

happy birthday :)

i'll remember you

It had been so long since we've talked
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change
Cause what we had can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away
Keep me in your heart for always

You make me belive
I can do almost anything
Stood right by me
Thru the tears, thru everything

I'll remember you
And baby that's forever true
You're the one that i always i missed
Never thought it would be like this

I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going thru
In my heart you'll always be
Forever baby i'll remember you

I promise you i won't forget the times
We'd shared the tears to cry
You'll always be the sun in the sky
It may be fate that brings us back
To meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways

If the day should come when you meet someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I'll be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
cause i'll remember you

to that special someone.

what exactly did you want to show ? what was that for ? to piss us off ?

you knew you weren't supposed to come, yet you could just act like nothing happened ? is the sight for seeing her walk away, and us quarelling very entertaining ? i totally lost my appettite. tell me, what was that for ?

Labels: i keep tellingmyself, i'm happy enough this way.

PEISHAN