going to be out wandering alone now.. bye...............................................................

i dont know.
will you listen even if i tell you ?
will you not be pissed ?
i'm always not the one making you happy.
never. why ?

THE PAINTBRUSH

i keep my paintbrush with me,
wherever i may go,
in case i need to cover up,
so the real me doesn't show.
i'm so afraid to show you me;
afraid of what you will do
i'm afraid you'll laugh or say mean things;
afraid i might lose you.

i'd like to remove all the layers,
to show you the real true me,
but i want you to try to understand; i need you to like what you see.
so if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
i'll remove the coats real slow
please understand how mush it hurts,
to let the real me show.
* how many layers do you have ?

the most meaningful lit lesson up till now.

i totally broke today. didn't know what happened. just felt super down, SUPER. went walking around the school alone. i just realised, if you really feel superly down, try walking around, alone. helps alot. its better than staying in the stuffy room hearing stuff you don't wanna hear, see things you don't wanna see, or anything thats making you angry and stuff. yup. :)

when to danceworks skit just now and rushed home for tuition. damn tired now. tmr still have to wake up earlier than before to help ianpoh. maths test tmr !!

i thought i would get to see the sec ones today. so sad, they will be coming on wed instead. BUT WE GOT REMEDIAL UP TILL LIKE 4 ? wahhhhhhh. s i a n s i a n s i a n. will be having remedial everyday for the rest for my sec 4 life. arghhh.
fnn coursework is like siao today. i don't even know what i am doing. boo. how to pass ?
thinking of seeing the 'sickinthemind' director makes me even more sian. i rather go for dance.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH MEL :D

i seriously think you are so * irritating. didn't want to think this way, but i couldn't help. is like what ? you can just forget what happened in the past ???? like wth la. you can just act like nothing happen before ???? you are so * pro.

can't you just GIVE IT UP !? wth man. don't you even feel akward ? don't you even feel wierd ? wth. shyt i'm getting so pissed. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Labels: sticky like glue

SEC 4 LIFE IS NOTHING BUT STRESS

HAPPY 2007 :)

the FIREWORKS were so beautiful. :) went to marina to watch the fireworks with jac and mel. a little disappointing cause didn't get to countdown. hah. nvm.
but before we went there, we went to suntec to find jess and feiyan at toys'r'us. they were so like slacking. tsk. haha. had a little fun there. saw many new faces though, and some 'old' ones. hahahahaha. feiyan and jessica planned a surprise for jac. she's so dumb can. they make it until so obvious and she didn't even suspect a thing, at all. how dumb. hahahaha. :D ok. then blablablablabla. oh man, mel chocked on the cake. saw her face all red. tsk. be careful laa. :)

*the squeezing part.

wahhhh. didn't expect the squeezing to be so bad. is like everybody was like rushing for the last train at like around 1.30am. wth la. like push~ push~ pushing~ jac is the pro. she managed to squeeze us thru the crowd then catch the last train. haha. :D went to bedok to get some drinks at mac and went home on cab. reached home at 2.50am. hahahaha. :D

PEISHAN